The first picture was taken wih our friends and Mr Bandit at Nutrimetics Extravaganza last July. Approx weight 130kgs. Mental state - very unhappy.
Rewind to July 2007. I was 101kgs and a little bit tipsy here (blatant understatement). I still thought I was revolting and fat. Clearly I wasn't.
I remember writing in my old blog that I just couldn't see what others saw and when people complimented me, I felt weird. It was like they were fibbing to me.
A friend Linda wrote "Would you rather they didn't comment?" I have printed this picture out and it's my reminder of where I'm going and then some.
I would love to look like that now. I am 16.6kgs off it. I am now officially 117.5kgs. Yep, down another 1.1kgs. OptiFast is giving me the shits but I've sucked it up and I know it's for a great cause. :)
As I press Publish on this post, it is 3 days and 22 hrs until I am officially a bandit! WEEEEE.
So tell me, or write a post - what is the inspiration picture you use for yourself? Leave a link in the comments section so I can check it out.
So tell me, or write a post - what is the inspiration picture you use for yourself? Leave a link in the comments section so I can check it out.
P.S. Kate, I'd love a post op visitor. Not sure how coherant I'll be. :) You've got Mr Bandits number, maybe ask him where I'll be?
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I'm so excited for you sweety and I'll be thinking about you. xxx
You look gorgeous in both pictures, you are a beautiful woman. Can't wait to meet you in the not too distant future and give you a huge hug!
And yes - I found the link! LOL.
Well done babe on the fab loss this week. You look gorgeous in both photos. Not long till the big day hope everything goes smoothly xx
Mine would have to be a pic taken with you and Scott (other Scott) on sunny coast... at the bus stop I think. I was so fit back then (re-kids) that is my goal for after bubby is born.
Well done on sticking with the Optifast. I can't imagine what it's been like for you (and the other gorgeous bandit friends of ours).
Unfortunately for some, me included, we'll never see what others see but we have to keep telling ourselves when we do get to our 'skinnier' selves that we DO look fab and we should remember that and we should perhaps start to listen to our friends more.
I used to think 80 kilos is major heffa territory and to some it still is but I actually look good at that weight and I need to remember that too. Photos are too painful for me but I have a realistic mental image that I'm striving for.
Big kiss if I don't get back to you before you go in and GOOD LUCK!! I'm really excited for you.
You really could have fooled me - especially the photo from last year - you look totally confident and happy.
I'm currently at 97 kg (93.5 by my scales!!) and i would be thrilled if I could look like you did in that black dress!!! (I just don't seem to carry my weight well!)
You are so close now - will be thinking of you on your surgery day. Before you know it you will be wearing that black dress again!
3 days! How exciting.. This time next week you'll be days into your recovery. Very cool.
I can't believe (well, obviously I can but y'know) you've lost so much and you're not even banded yet! Imagine what it'll be like when you're banded.. nuts!
Oh, look there I am! Thanks for putting me on your blogroll :)
will do... ta x
my pic like that was from phil's farewell in your fb pics. I only WISH I still looked like that!
Stupid self images.
I actually did a very similar post to this a week or so ago. Here is the link
http://bellajanekella.blogspot.com/2010/03/weight-update.html
You are doing amazingly well Bec. If I don't speak to you before the date, good luck for next week!!
Getting very excited for you. Best of luck with everything in the coming days and weeks. Take care. xx PS. I thought both pics were beautiful as well, but I do remember loving that little black dress!
I suddenly lost a lot of weight a few years back. I was loosely wearing UK size 12 trousers. That had not happened for 10 years the least you know.
I still saw myself as the woman with the tree truck thighs. Whereas with tight trousers and heels I did looked nothing but juicy!
Of course I see it now, that Im tightly back to my size 14 (was back to the 16's a couple of months ago). Back then it was as non existent for me.
I dont know if having spent a lot of time on a certain (high) weight stamps an image of ourselves in our minds and then it takes an eon to recover and change that image.
Or it's just the fact that we feel big, thus see ourselves as being big, and even subconsciously get to the point of getting to be really big.
The thing I know for sure though, is that there has never been a photo of yours in which I saw size. All there was for me in your photos is glamour and stardust.
Oh !!! And I still remember how I envied those black heels of yours back then!!!
Argy
Looking good. I went through some pics last weekend and it was funny-I looked pretty good in them, when all along I thought I was soooo fat. Perception is something I am working on. When I look in the mirror I see a thin person (dysmorphic syndrome?) sort of when an anorexic person looks and sees themselves as fat. When I see a picture of me, I think what a tubby and hate the fat. I guess I have some brain work to do to see the real me.
Work in Progress-that's what we are.
Good luck with the op!
My cousin is model material (slim, tall, HOT) & she can't see her beauty either. It's a mental state not a weight state & I hope that you both/all (yes you Cinders!) overcome this sooner than later as you are all gorgeous & deserve to be happy (as in not carrying around that self loathing)!
XO
I think I'll be in the air on your big day so GOOD LUCK!! I'll be thinking of you :)
Great inspiration here, congrats on your losses so far and all the best for the Op :)
btw - you have a killer figure at 101kg, makes me think just how much BMI is not a one size fits all rule
OMG so SOON! Thinking of you darl ((HUGS))
Awesome effort on Optifast, your a strong woman Beck. Good luck for the big day, will be thinking of you. Are you able to say what hospital your in or do you have a PO Box.
Kym
Wow that's come around quickly (though probably not for you). Bec, you look stunning no matter what weight you are, I don't think i've ever seen a 'bad' photo of you, that's because you have such a positive outlook on life and your beauty comes from within. Good luck with the surgery, I look forward to following your progress.
I've always loved that second photo of you, you look gorgeous x
Wishing you the very best for the op - will be ethinking of you as I go to bed on the other side of the world on Sunday night, hope all goes well for you, looking forward to hearing from you next week xxx
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