I felt a little compelled to write this post because the most bizarre changes are happening in my body but moreso in my mind.
Those who know me, know I am generally a really positive, cup is half full person. I believe in the laws of attraction and this has taught me so much about he way I think and prospective outcomes. For example - if I wake up thinking it's a shitty day, guess what? I'm right.
But the changes in my mind have been clearly evident and overwhelming at moments.
Myself and the gorgeous Miss Meg
Last night I went to visit my best friend Meg in hospital in Castlemaine. She has just had reconstructive surgery after successfully losing 50kgs with lapbanding. She looked incredible and I can't wait to be mirroring her successes.
Meg showed me an email from her friend who said she noticed the changes in Meg. Her mindsets, believing the cup is half full and glowing from the inside out. Meg bestowed the most beautiful compliment on me and said her life has changed so much since meeting me and I have showed her the laws of attraction and how much they've affected her life in the past few months.
It got me thinking on the drive home and I thought about how much my own mindset has changed simply since having banding. (yes, even I stopped believing in the laws of attraction over the past year)
My Libido. Let's talk about it. I have these feelings surging through my body similar to when Mr Bandit and I first met. I literally want to tear his clothes off. The passion is back baby and I'm pretty sure he loves it. I feel sexy, sexy, sexy and slinky. Last weekend I had a number of nights on the town because of special events and was hit on numerous times by confident, gorgeous men. Flattering much?
Farewell to my friend & blogger Nessie who is moving to Melbourne
I'll be honest. Although Mr Bandit is smokin hot to me, I have been knocking him back due to "I'm tirrrrred." "I just don't feel well" "I don't feel sexy". This has been going on for months. Now we're making out at the drop of a hat. Giddyup!
My Moods - I suffered badly with depression after Master 1.5 was born. Didn't want to breathe, let alone eat, shower or talk to people. I was on medication that didn't agree with me and made me completely flip out and want to drive into the lake and drown. I wasn't well but also tried to hide it from anyone who loved me. I was suicidal and just wanted to slip away withot anyone noticing.
Now, however - I am happy again. My old/new self. I can cope with lifes little speedbumps with a calm brain and lvoe in my heart. Soppy but precisely how I feel.
My Brain - My thoughts feel completely different. Since having the banding my brain feels energetic and my mind is following. Its been so long since I've felt this feeling. Today, even though it's cold, all I can think of is "It's stunning!". I love feeling like this.
Saturday night during Nessies farewell party.I was wearing a shirt, I promise.
20kgs down and around 40kgs to go.
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You can feel your happiness. You look amazing.
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Ditto! Sounds like my life! Worlds apart and yet the same! I talked to your Mum yesterday and it made me Beck-sick! When u coming home?? And u deserve 2 b happy!
Thanks for sharing a great read with us, you do never cease to amaze me, even when you were in those dark days, you were able to let us in a tiny bit, to glimpse the real you, you have had bad times but (and I dont know if you even know of him) the late George Best ( suffered with depression and alcolhol issues )said and I quote
"All the bad times cannot wipe away the good memories, and despite all the ups and downs, when I look at my life as a whole, it is impossible for me not to feel blessed." -
You, I believe. are truly blessed.
Cheers
xx
Hun, you look gorgeous and radiant! The changes have been phenomenal, I'm so happy for you hun. I'm glad your back to enjoying life and everything that comes along with it. Big smooches to you, Hayley
Wow just reading that makes me feel so positive, I am so glad your happy, and that your friend is doing well.
I have been very depressed also with my first born, so I know where your coming from there. But look you are glowing and it rubs off on people. Your such an inspiration. Em xxx
I feel exactly the same way since I had my surgery in July last year. Even though my weight loss has been slow (20kg since July) I'm perfectly fine with that. Weeks have gone by where I dont loose anything but I dont put on anything either, for me thats a huge deal! Who knew a piece of plastic could have such a huge affect on your life!
Yay for a great libido! Mine got up and left awhile ago and I just don't know where to find it (me thinks it might be due to menopause??). Maybe it will come back on its own :)
So good to hear your feeling like your old self again. You are such a gorgeous person xx
So happy to hear that my beautiful, bubbly, Blue is coming back!
You give me hope, xxx ;)
Oh, and 20kgs? :0
No wonder you're feeling like a hornbag again ;)
You are amazing - I am so happy to see the turn around in you in such a short space of time.
You look awesome, you sound awesome, you ARE awesome! x x x
no matter what weight you have been you have always been beautiful!! Now you are radiating it! You really look amazing and you can visibly see your confidence coming back
Ok.. time to rub some of this happiness off onto me girl... And I am not about to get banded to feel sexy again!! lol... sadly I know what you were going through... Hard to drag yourself back out isnt it.. Happy to hear you are so happy...
Not long to go now!!! 33 Sleeps ;o) Not that I am counting or anything...
Yay to feeling yourself again :)
sounds like banding has been such a positive step for you
Bec, you are such a stunning, gorgeous and effervescent person! Each time I read your blog my mood is lifted and I feel inspired. Thankyou for sharing xx
Bec, you're glowing! I can relate to what Meg said because your attitude and your belief in the law of attraction is one of the things that I found so inspiring about you. You encouraged me to read "The Secret" and it might just be a good thing for me to do again right now!
You are one of those beautiful people that have a massive impact on people, that's something to be proud of and while it's great to know you can have a positive effect on others please know that those same people are always there for you!
I followed your pregnancy with Morrison knowing I was only a few months behind you (Mikayla was born on 5th September) and I too suffered PND, it turned my world upside down but I believe (like you) it's tough to keep good people down!
I'm so glad that you've found the old Bec, and she 20kgs of her along the way - YOU ROCK!
You are an inspirational person Bec and a great communicator, your honest communications are a great read and your ability to talk about the depression of the past will help many other people, so well done for that and congratulations on how well you are feeling within yourself and your successful weight loss. well done :-)
*glowing kiss to a glowing chick*
THANKS so much for sharing this! It's very personal and stuff like this can be hard to share. I appreciate it and have found motivation in your experience.
It's so good to know you are feeling so uplifted :) Keep it up, you are doing fabulous!
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